Very Funny God

I was prepared for a "no" and hoping for a "yes" but "alternate" never even crossed my mind.

The thing is- I know God is laughing right now. Or, more accurately, he is chuckling because he thinks he's so darn funny.... which he is and I would admit if I weren't too busy being a sore loser.

I've been waiting for weeks to hear back about this Global Justice Volunteers position. I have been trying so hard to be patient (which worked really well until I Friday) but since then I've been driving myself crazy waiting for an answer. As promised I got one- it just happened to be completely inconclusive. But that's such a God thing to do- isn't it? When I run out of patience God gives me an answer, but the answer is to be patient a little longer.

Usually I don't have any problem with uncertainty- actually I usually quite enjoy it. I wonder why this time is so different. Maybe it's because I actually care about this. Maybe it's because I'm scared. Maybe it's some combination of the two. Whatever it is rest assured I will not be resting soundly for quite a while.

So who knows? Three months from now I may blogging from Africa or I may be blogging from this very bed.

For now I'll take this. I realize that suffering and waiting are not nearly the same thing- but for today they are close enough.

"And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, for we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us."
Romans 5:1-5